Eyedentity
God is love.
He's been ministering this to me a lot lately.
He not only loves me - with a love that I will never be able to comprehend, though I will enjoy every minute of discovering its depth - but because God created me in His image ---> I am love.
We are the apple of His eye.
I spent so much of my life trying to get to a point where He could use me. Trying to make myself worthy enough, (quite a goal...) as if enough time passed from my last big screw up I would work better. Spending time focusing on not focusing on myself, creating my own purple polka dotted elephant, when He just wants me to love what He created me to be.
"For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a dim (blurred) reflection [of reality as in a riddle or an enigma], but then [when perfection comes] we shall see in reality and face to face! Now I know in part (imperfectly), but then I shall know and understand fully and clearly, even in the same manner as I have been fully and clearly understood [by God]." [1 Cor. 13:12]
In the last entry, I mentioned perfection being a "stupid" goal. Let me clarify -
it's silly because we already have it. God is our perfection. We are created in His image. He is our I AM. We are I AM. (you should read shad's blog on I AM.) I feel like He's been constantly reminding me to look in His eyes. Sometimes I find myself trying to find answers to questions and getting completely frustrated because somewhere in the middle of me "trusting" in Him and His promise I got distracted, mad, controlling, and afraid - blurred.
When I read shad's blog "Answers Without Questions" I gained a more clear ( and yes, romantic) picture of this. With Jesus lifting my head in His hand, where eyes meet eyes, face to face - I see me in the reflection of His eyes. The reflection of His perfection. His eyes filled with peace. Filled with promises of unending hope, faithfulness, and love. Where I find rest.
